Confession: Though I don’t have children of my own, I believe
I have a responsibility to be involved in positively influencing the lives of
the children God has placed in each season of my life.
In my list of goals for my 38th year, I said I would
use Tuesday nights as girls’ night. So, tonight I did that very thing! I spent
the evening enjoying meat pizza, cinnamon sticks, a fun game of questions, and
lots of laughs with my dear friends Hannah and Callie. They are such a fun set
of sisters! They have great personalities, they are intelligent, they think for
themselves, they wore spandex, and they challenged me to adjust my thinking and
words. And they are only 8 and 6!
When I arrived to pick them up, they had just finished
gymnastics, so they were clad in sparkly spandex outfits and so excited to go that
we didn’t even bother changing their clothes! We loaded up and headed to Johnny’s
for some delicious pizza and cinnamon sticks. You can see by their expressions
that they were big fans of the sweet goodness!
I knew we would have some wait time, so to be intentional
with the time, I chose to introduce them to one of my favorite games, a self-created
game I like to call “Answer Alanna’s Question.” Here’s how it works: one person
asks a question and everyone answers it. I have used it in groups, on dates, in
one on one situations, and sometimes when people didn’t even know they were
playing! {I’m sneaky like that.} First, it’s a great way to get conversation going.
Second, you casually learn about others while they also learn about you. Third,
it allows you to find commonalities you have with others. Some people have been
more willing to play than others, but I have never regretted starting a game!
With my sweet little friends, I used a set of “Would You
Rather…” cards I found here and printed. We spread them out on the table and
each took turns reading one and answering it. I had them explain their answers
which allowed them to explore their imaginations, think through their answers,
and even change their minds if their thought processes caused them to realize
their initial answer wasn’t as great as they originally thought. We had a great
time!
At one point in the conversation, I was challenged by one of
their answers and confronted by my own negative thoughts of myself…as silly as
that may sound. The question was “Would you rather all your clothes were black
or all your clothes were white?” Hannah
got really excited and immediately knew her answer. She said she would
definitely pick black because she could put colorful jewelry or sparkly diamond
jewelry and it would look so beautiful! Callie pointed out that when you wear
black, if you spill on it no one will know! They were both right…but neither of
those were my first response. I immediately thought “Wearing white would make
me look paler and fatter than I really am. I’d definitely pick black because it’s
more slenderizing.”
As I opened my mouth to say these very words, I immediately
sucked them back in and agreed with the girls, taking the discussion to fun
jewelry, diamonds, and hidden stains. Though my initial thoughts may not have
been completely incorrect, they have no place in my heart…or theirs. There are
a couple of reasons for this. First, who I am and what I am capable of has
nothing to do with how large I may look or actually be. My value doesn’t come
from my body size or shape. Second, if I’m going to influence the children in
my life to grow spiritually, emotionally, and relationally, I have no business
encouraging them to allow their physical appearance to determine how they feel
about themselves. I know you may think I’m being overly dramatic. I don’t. I
vividly recall hearing as a young child, “As you grow taller, you’ll thin out.”
{I’ve spent most of my life waiting for that growth spurt!} Only recently have
I learned to see myself as more than my body and appearance. Only recently have
I been able to say with confidence that I am truly fearfully and wonderfully
made and I’m ok with myself. In fact, I’m more than ok with myself. I actually
LIKE myself. That’s a new one for me. And it’s freeing. And it allows me to
wear either black or white with confidence. I pray sweet Hannah and Callie will
learn this younger than I did. I also pray that those of us who have influence
over little friends will encourage them toward positive and godly real thoughts
rather than believing the lies that have sucked so many of us in. Will you join
me?